You'll be the death of me

Yesterday was...I don't even know.
Intake-
yogurt(50)
lemon chicken for dinner(200)
2 pieces of banana bread(250)
500 calories total
burned 300.

I had to make banana bread for my sister but it is seriously like my number 1 binge food. I love hate it sososo much. But whatever, I guess it could have been worse right? Today is gonna be amazing. Just watch.

Planned intake-
oatmeal(70) or yogurt(60)
2 egg whites(34) and half slice of banana bread(70) -estimating high.

The banana bread was originally for tonight because we're having breakfast for dinner so I have to have it. Also if I allow myself some then I won't binge on it.
So hopefully my total will be just about 180ish.

Well i'm off to go get some school done. I'm so freeeeezzzinnnnnggggg girls. I hope you all are having a fantastariffic day.
-Sky

spring*

It's definately spring time. My mom and I decorated for easter today and I haven't eaten a lot. So far it's only been 1/2 cup of cherrios(50) and tonight i'm making butternut squash risotto(about 200). That's all im planning on having, but my mom wants me to make banana bread so someone might force me to eat that. But whatever im gonna burn at least 400 cals. on the elliptical later so i'll be in the negatives. This is the best sunday i've had in way too long.

I know everyone says this, but I feel really, really motivated to loose this weight. I used to let myself have free days almost every weekend but I don't even want to do that anymore. I just want to eat the bare minimum to get by. I hope everyone is having a great weekend and hopefully losing. Weight that is haha.

25 followers! :O If i'm not following any of you lovelies don't hesitate to tell me to. I love all you girls so so much! Your comments always make my day so much better.

-Sky

Let's get down to business

Today was fine I guess. It should have been better. A lot of low calorie foods that add up. Tomorrow is a new day though and I need to do better. I know i've just been hovering around 112 and 111 and I have to get lower. Calories last longer that cravings.
Intake-
yogurt(60)
clementine(30)
2 rice cakes(70)
salad(180)
veggie puffs(100)
1 1/2 cups of cheerios(165)
Total- 605 calories

I need this weight to come off or else i'm going to scream. So i'm gonna go burn 400 calories on the eliptical. Tomorrow i'm only eating whatever I have to shove down for dinner and a clementine. Fuck yeah.
Love you alllll<3
-Sky

P.S- I'll love you forever if you realized that the post title is from Mulan. Disney movies ftw.

Oh hello.

Oh hey laptop:D I feel so much better with my laptop back.

Intake for yesterday-
Luna Bar(160)
Frozen Yogurt(100)
Rice and beans(250)
Rice cake(35)
Clementine(30)
In- 575

Elliptical- 250 cals.

So yesterday was fine. Could have been better but I definately don't feel a gain or anything. I've stuck to my not weighing for a week and I think it's helping. Today i'm only gonna have, yogurt(60) clementine(30) dinner- mango chicken(200).

Oh! Haha I can't believe I didn't tell you guys this. So a couple days ago when I said in my post that I had so much to tell you guys? Well I forgot about a doctor's appointment my mom told me about a loooong time ago. I went and everything was fine but after he weighed me he was like "oh you've lost a few pounds since your last appointment(which was also a loong time ago). I don't want you to loose anymore, okay? You're already under-weight." And being the good little girl I am, I smiled and was all like, "Oh yeah I don't want to loose anymore. Sometimes I just loose without thinking about it?" Hah, yeah right. Well I wasn't exactly going to say, uhm no. I want to loose like 6 more pounds haha.


So i'll being posting long posts again and commenting and stuff. Love you girlies<3
-Sky

Sorry

I get my laptop back tomorrow. I'll post then. Love you girls so much and so, so sorry for being a crap-tastic blogger.

-Sky

Metabolism

is a killer. I think that might be why my weight is stuck. So I had a luna bar(160) for lunch instead of my usual yogurt and then tonight i'm having chicken and rice(180-200) and then i'll have a jell-o(10) for a snack later. I'm pretty happy about this and hopefully it'll help me get off these nasty pounds.


So i'm pretty sick of my ballet school. I'm moving to San Francisco this summer(extremely excited about this!) and I cannot wait to get out of here! I love ballet more than anything but I find myself not wanting to go to class sometimes because I really dislike my studio. It's a really sucky situation.


I looked at my school calender today and I think i'm going to be done earlier than I expected! I only have a couple of weeks left of science and everything else is about the same:) Yay for summer!


Sorry for all the rambling! I hope all you lovely girls are having a wonderful day<3
xo Skylar

We'll carry on.

My chemical romance is my favorite band. ever.

So after this bad, bad weekend I gained a pound. I feel so ashamed but I will get this off and more! I am so determined now. I have decided i'm not going to weigh everyday though. I'm probably going to wait until friday but we'll see how it goes:)

I am so tired of school at this point. I have some big tests coming up and I just want to get the done with and get this year over with! I'm supposed to be in a virtual math class right now(im in virtual school because I dance all day) but instead i'm watching spongebob and blogging:D

All you girlies are way too sweet. I definately don't deserve your kindness:') I'm re-reading wintergirls this week to motivate me, it always works. I'm sticking with my plan of as low calories as possible which should definately work, right??

Okay I should definately go to this class. Love you girlies so, so much!
P.S- To any new followers, if i'm not already following you just comment telling me to follow you! Or else I might nevverO_O
Sorry dramatic, weird moment.
Oh and p.p.s- Still no laptop so my post's are really boring right now:( So sorry girlies.
-Sky

Dead.

My laptop is official dead guys:( So this will be a super short post and I won't be posting a lot until I get a new laptop:(
Intake:
Luna Bar(160)
Jell-o(10)
Yogurt(60)
2 Slices of delicious Pizza(400)
Bite of Cannoli(100ish)
Total: 730ish disgusting calories.

Output: Nothing except for the 5+ hours of intense ballet today.

So stupid me forgets to bring my yogurt to ballet(which I was at allll day) and I almost pass out after my first class. Thankfully nobody thought anything wierd about it(proof that I am a fattie mcfatface). My bestfriend gives me a luna bar which I scarf down and then get home and eat the yogurt. Thhenn, after ballet my parents decide "We've all been so busy lately, let's go out for a family dinner!"
Kill me now.
So that fattening dinner and bite of cannoli(which I am estimating high because it was soo scrumptious and delicious it could not have been low) was forced on me. It's times like this where I wish I could make myself puke. My belly feels gross and I deserve to be 114 lbs. tomorrow.
This really wasn't a short post was it? But I have so much to tell you lovely ladies. But alas, it shall have to wait.(I'm a dork)
Please, please send me some good skinny vibes so I won't wake up any heavier tomorrow!
Love you all so so much<3
-Sky

April Fools.

Im skinny!

April fools. I'm fat. Even after my good day of eating yesterday my weight did.not.budge. But I had another pretty good day so hopefully i'll see 110 tomorrow.

Intake-
Yogurt(60)
Healthy Choice Meal(240)
Small cookie(100)
400 calories

Output-
Elliptical: 500 calories burned

Total: -100

Again, it looks pretty good. I still just feel like I ate to much. Ahh oh well. I have ballet all day tomorrow which makes me happy:) I'm posting on our family computer that nobody uses because my laptop is being all shitty. I'll make sure to clear the history and everything but unfortunately that means no beautiful pictures:(
I am so tired of 111 lbs. I just want to see 110! And then 108, then 106 and if it needs to go farther, then it will. I hope you all had a wonderful april fools and pulled some pranks on some poor suckers:)
Think skinny darlings<3
-Sky

Happiness.

Today was such a good day. I live on anna maria island and we had sever thunder storms and rain all day and I loved it:) The rain is so calming, don't you agree? And then I had ballet tonight(I go monday-saturday) and it was such a good class! I really feel i'm improving and I wore a pretty, new leotard that I thought I actually looked okay in. It was wierd.

                                                                    So I stuck to my plan for today! I had-

                                  Yogurt(50)

                                    Dinner(250)

                                         Clementine(30)

                                                         I'm good with this intake and hoping tomorrow will be about the same.

                                                     Oh and that picture up there^. That's my beloved New York City Ballet:)

                                                    All of the dancers are so beautiful, I want to be just like them.

Oh and to reply to a few comments:

Miss Alisha- Yeah I feel like my parents are probably watching me a little more. But my mom understands that being a ballet dancer, I have to be skinnier than the normal person so I can actually get away with a little more that way. Also I know if she ever confronted me she would never make me go to one of those awful clinics or into the hopsital.

Peridot- Exactly how I feel! I especially like world history. I want to travel the world when i'm older and filthy rich:D(I can hope) Egypt is definately my number one.

Now i'm off to bed, sweet dreams skinny girls!

-Sky



Versatile Blogger Award



The Rules:

 

1. Thank the person who loved you enough to bestow this gift

2. Share seven things about yourself.

3. Bestow this honor onto 10 newly discovered or followed bloggers– in no particular order– who are fantastic in some way.

4. Drop by and let your ten new friends know you admire them

Thank you so, so, sooo much Unknown for nominating me ;)

Seven things about muah-
1. I LOVE ballet. My goal is to be in New York City Ballet but really, as long as i'm dancing i'll be happy.
2. I'm a complete and total foodie! I love cooking and baking. Sadly this does not go very well with my "lifestyle"
3. I love math! Oh and history. I guess you could say i'm a nerd?
4. After having a ballet career(hopefully) I want to either be a vet or a nutritionist. I know, I know pretty ironic, huh?
5. I love animals soo much! As I mentioned I would love to be a vet. I have 3 dogs and I love them to death:)
 6. I'm super paranoid about this blog. I'm really afraid someone I know is going to find this O_O
7. I have 3 older sisters. All of them had eating disorders and 2 of them were hospitalized for this. I don't know why were messed up. My mom is amazing and a nutritionist so we should be healthy right? It's really not her fault, it's our own.

I now bestow this honor unto these lovely ladies:)
1. The lovely Olivia Lee
2. The beautiful Zette
3. One of the first blogs I found- Victoria
4. The skinny Posie whose blog I absolutely ADORE
5. The inspiring Miss Alisha
6. One of my favorite blogs- Annamaria
7. The gorgeous Harley
8. Lovely PollyAnna
9. Another one of the first blogs I ever read- Alex
10. My texting buddy:)- Ashley
Whew. That took a while:) Love you all!
-Sky

"Don't dig your grave with your own knife and fork"

Intake:
Yogurt(60)
Cereal(100) w/ Soy Milk(15)
Chicken Lettuce Wrap(100)
Banana(90)
Clementine x2(60)
Input: 425 calories
Output: 450 calories
Written out it looks pretty good, but I just feel like I ate too much:(

So i've decided i'm going to start factoring in excercise to my daily total. I'm not going to count all the calories I burn at ballet because I really don't know how much it is:p I just know it's a lot. But i'm just going to count the extra calories I burn. I have a little love affair with my elliptical machine<3 It's so convienant to have it in my house.





Tomorrow i'm going to try to keep it as low as possible, so i'm planning on eating the following ONLY:

Yogurt(60)

Healthy Choice meal for dinner(240)

Clementine(30)

Total: 330

Hopefully i'll actually stick to that plan. I really feel like I can.

In case you haven't noticed yet i'm obsessed with yogurt. I eat those 60 calorie light and fit yogurts and they are totally scrumptious:D They really fill me up at only 60 calories a piece. The strawberry and banana ones are only 50:O



I really do love all you girls already<3 When I read your comments it makes me so happy because I know I have people that understand and that support me:) If your following me and i'm not following you(I probably am) leave me a comment. My follower list is stupid and won't let me see your blog unless you comment:(

Love you all!

-Sky

On starving

The more you starve, the easier it gets. Yesterdays intake:
Non-fat yogurt(50)
Turky burger (170) & beans(70)
Total: 300 calories
My weight was still 111 lbs but I expected that after the ice cream the night before.

Todays intake was:
Salad w/ a bit of chicken(about 150ish)
Chicken and Vegetables(300)
Pudding(60)
Total: 510 calories

So usually I don't like to eat a lot for lunch but I had to go to this luncheon for ballet and they made me eat. (Hence the salad w/ chicken) Hopefully there will be a little loss tomorrow but i've learned to not expect it. Before I found myself fighting to not eat but now, I just don't want to eat. It doesn't matter if i'm hungry, eating disgusts me now:) Oh and today I didn't get to weigh because I had to rush off to rehearsal for that luncheon and I don't like to weigh after I east lunch, you know?

I hope everyone is having a great day:) Think skinny!
-Sky

Rules

Yesterday was going SO well. Then I had ice cream. What's wrong with me? It really wasn't a lot of ice cream, only about 200 calories, but still.
Sooo i've been inspired by OliviaLee to make a set of rules for this week.

• Under 600 calories a day
• No fattening foods
• Only allowed a jell-o (10) or a pudding (60) as a snack after dinner.
• 30 minutes on the eliptical after I get home from 3 hours at ballet.

This is not even that strict. I can definatly do this.

Thank you to my few followers:) I know i'm probably not very exciting but I really appreciate knowing there are people out there that care.
-Sky

Happy National "Joe" Day

I love random holidays.

So today has been good, about 170 calories so far from a luna bar (160) and a jell-o(10). I'm going to express my love for jell-o. I mean come on, 10 calories? That's pretty darn cool in my book. Tonight i'm making thai chicken lettuce wraps with fake chicken and they are only going to be a maximum of 100 calories per wrap:D I love making my own low-calorie food! I was pretty excited today when I checked my blog and had 3 followers:D I know, I know it's really not a lot at all but im happy.
I hope everyone is having a wonderful weekend<3

-Sky

[Insert snazzy title here]

Today has been okay so far. Could have been worse but could have been a lot better.
So far i've had :

Pasta(220)

Cantaloupe(40)

Pudding(60)

I'll have to eat dinner tonight which will be beef and mashed potatoes(about 400). Can you say high calories? And gag, I don't even like beef. But i'll eat a little because if I don't my dad will be all suspicious and annoying.

Tomorrow will be a better day.

-Sky

New:)

Hey everyone! So i'm new to blogger so please, please bear with me:]
I'm going to go by Skylar on here because i'm terrified of someone I know finding this blog:( My name obviously is not skylar but i've always loved that name so why not?

So i'm just going to get right into this with my info:D

Im 14, 5'8" and currently 111 lbs.
Im an extremely(emphasis on the extremelyy!!) serious ballet dancer and I love it more than I could ever explain! I guess you could say that's where my eating issues came from. I'm not going to go very deep into it right now but yeah. My current goal weight is about 106 but if I get down to that and i'm not happy with it, i'll go lower.

So I currently have no followers so I guess i'm just talking to myself? But pleassseee everyone follow me because i'm just that amazingly awesomee:)